Honesty Issue

Honesty Issue.

 

 

Way back before, when they keep on teaching the essence of truth, and when they used to say that honesty is the key to a better relationship.

I am over used to hear it; I can’t say that I am not perfect. I lied, I am lying and I did something that I needed to tell a lie. People’s NATURAL Attitude. (But it’s not a reason to.)

 

Lying is such a pain in the heart of someone who can easily hear conviction, But for those who are not, it’s just their mother tongue. When there’s no such thing to consult, lying is nothing but an option when

There is no way. I can define more meanings, such examples. But let me point out the real  line, Someone can’t be real. Someone can’t be true. Someone is in the midst of uncertainty.

My sister then confesses me the problem in the house, money matters. Maybe all of us are experiencing financial problem, but what matter is, THE HONESTY THING. I never think of anything like that, maybe the often problem we have had, and I wish it’s only HAD. Gone, for gone. For good.  How I wished a Issue FREE family. But then again, the person who taught me what HONESTY is, the one who broke the sheet and turn it to a shit. Maybe he forgets what honesty is, or maybe.. it’s a maybe. That he knew it and really talk about bullshit and lies. My anger overflows. I can’t blame him, because he is in a bad mood, or maybe he is a victim of his own cause, that all the years of my mourning, my self-pity and my heartaches were caused by him. I just want to blame him the reason of every shit in my academy, all the reason why my life was a living Shit before. I don’t want to swim in river of grief and sorrow, I might drown and no one will save me. How I wish that he will change everything from the very least and just try to make it better, he never loses hope on me. I shouldn’t.

 

 

Crush=Crash

 

 

 

 

 

Lately I’ve been I’ve been losing sleep.

 

Good Morning Thursday, Hello lazy Day.  I was in a horrible situation because I sleep late and I am not happy sleeping late out of no reason.

Text messages from him, Usual but not usual. hahha. Good morning stuff bound to happen. I want to dip myself in but I am afraid because the line is too blur to sink myself in.

 

I don’t like him, it’s like I want him just because I think I am ruling or over gaining more than the usual.  I am not happy entertaining the stuffs that makes him fall for me, I am not happy hearing that he wants to spend of his time to me. Maybe flattered that someone is looking after you, filling up the missing time. But not happy knowing that I am hauling someone’s time in the grasp of my hands. My feeling was created selfishly. Selfishly. Selfishly.

 

Right now, I am in the midst of wanting to talk to him, and maybe not to because he is a damn boring creature. Sorry for the words that I used to describe. He is sorry. 😀 He is sorry.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Bound to happen

 

 

 

 

 

Lately I’ve been I’ve been losing sleep.

 

Good Morning Thursday, Hello lazy Day.  I was in a horrible situation because I sleep late and I am not happy sleeping late out of no reason.

Text messages from him, Usual but not usual. hahha. Good morning stuff bound to happen. I want to dip myself in but I am afraid because the line is too blur to sink myself in.

 

I don’t like him, it’s like I want him just because I think I am ruling or over gaining more than the usual.  I am not happy entertaining the stuffs that makes him fall for me, I am not happy hearing that he wants to spend of his time to me. Maybe flattered that someone is looking after you, filling up the missing time. But not happy knowing that I am hauling someone’s time in the grasp of my hands. My feeling was created selfishly. Selfishly. Selfishly.

 

Right now, I am in the midst of wanting to talk to him, and maybe not to because he is damn boring creature. Sorry for the words that I used to describe. He is sorry. 😀 He is sorry.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Throwback dark days

Hi I’m  sad. I don’t know what is going on right now. I am so depressed. And emotionally wreck. I don’t know what happened, I just know that I am not happy. It seems like I am inviting every sins that I do, I want to be sinful, I mock, I lied, I cheat and I disagree. I am not happy entertaining these. Even though that I know God in my life what is it that bothers me to stand back, what is is that hinders me to obey him? I am starting to hate others, starting to say some bad words for them and starting to isolate myself again. I hate being like this, it seems that everytime I wake up is a struggle to me. What to do, I am too down. I know who God is, I know how to prayer, I know how to worship, but I know that God is not happy with what I am doing.

Repentance is easy, but when I think of it it’s crucial., Things aren’tthe same as before. We used to be like playmate and friend, but now I consider her as the worst stranger whom I may bump whenever I went to Batangas. How long should I struggle for this? How long should I stop my mouth from saying, HI! Thanks for the bracelet. I really like it. How long should I avoid every step that she take? HOW LONG????But everytime I think of it, flashback returns. So I stumble, I think of every mess.

I don’t know what to do right now, I know that the reason of this depression, is that I fail to communicate and to ignore her. But is she saying anything? OMY. This is it again, maybe I want to talk more about this.

If we can’t really understand each other, I need a great space. Huge. Vast.

I don’t know what is she trying to defend, but one thing I know she fail to understand and just cling on to something that she thinks that is right.

But right now, I don’t know how to react with the flying sh*ts in my mind. It seems like because I am wrong right now, I want to entertain any illegal things in life. Oh, God rebuke this. 

 

What bible is.

B-Basic 

I- Instruction in 

B-efore

L-eaving

E-arth

OMG. BELIEBERS!

The feeling when you are just browsing and this post is an eye- sore. Eww. 

Student compliment

To the student:
Me: Do you have your girlfriend?
Him: No.
Me: Oh, You mean none.
Him: yes,What about you? Do you have
boyfriend?
Me: yes, I have.
Him: Yeah I know, Because you’re pretty.

 

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What Michael Shares…

I’ve been teaching this kid for more than 10 weeks,
and I am complaining a lot.
He is loud, full of naughtiness, not focusing well
and always doing something in our class.

 

I keep on complaining about it,
But when I try to slow down and let him to show off.
And let him, talk and talk without saying, YOU SHOULD LISTEN.

I realize that we have a lots of common.

 

He loves Marvel stories so am I, he shared me his ideas about the ending
of Captain America, and share his thoughts what would be Avengers 2 Look like.

He shared his favorite car, Lamborghini Veneno, and I insisted Lamborghini Elemento
And He still insisted it. Haha, I guess Veneno is better. Hahah 😀

We talked about my favorite game, Real Racing. And he knows it too.
And he is playing Asphalt, and it’s not a new game for me.
Because I played that before, racing game is what we usually talked about.

One more thing, I love spam and bacon. And this kiddo loves eating spam and bacon too.
I asked him, SPAM or BACON? OH no. OH No. The kid just smile and doesn’t want to answer until I insist..
I want bacon than spam, He said. Haha, He can’t choose Really had a hard time in choosing.

And lastly, this kid makes me realize that the song LET It Be- Beetles is really awesome.
“Speaking words of wisdom, Let it be..” Makes me smile. Really smile. Specially when
he sings this. * Oh, I miss him already. :((

(Michael Singing Let it Be) 

I wanna share this cute homework that he did,
I asked him to draw a map, he said that he did that on paper.
but because we are studying on Skype. He will just transfer it.

 

 

And when I said, Oh. Good homework– He seems like in the top of the world. 

I really appreciate everything Michael. See you soon, Eui Seo.